Ohhh....me

I haven't blogged in so long, I wish I had stuck with it better but unfortunately I always forget about it and how much fun it is! I guess I also feel like there isn't much for me to say. Haha. I don't do extraordinary things on a daily basis but I do enjoy my life to the fullest. Since I last blogged about a billion things have happened to me; I graduated college (YAY), broke up with my boyfriend, gained a wonderful amazing new roommate, became a bartender at work, started working out daily, have weekly phone conversations with my father, hang out with my brother all the time. Some of these are obviously more monumental than others but all very new exciting nonetheless. Here are some pics to help you catch up on my life: (not in any particular order)

                                                         Celebrated New Years with my friends

                                                         Ones I didn't usually party with

                                                Had such a blast

                                                              Old lob members

                                          These are my group of friends and fellow co workers

                                               Watched my cousin/best friend turn 21

                                                                    CHAMP

                                            Visited my grandma who I haven't seen in a while

                                               Took my best friend and brother along. :)

                        Watched my cousin get married, now there are only 4 of us singles left!

                                                         Went to a Pride festival in SF

                                                         Made a new Irish friend

                                                                 Enjoyed my summer!

                                                             SWIM SWIM SWIM!

                                                        Hung out with old family friends

                                                        Partied like a frickin rockstar

                                           Celebrated a good friends birthday and got bangs!

                                     Celebrated Halloween as an angel and ditched the bangs

                                                            Found a new roommate!

                                             Enjoyed Thanksgiving with my wonderful family.

                                                     Hung out with my amazing little bro

                                                                 Lovin my roommate!

                                                           More partying like a rockstar!

                                                                  Had a house party!

                                                        Turned 21 for the fourth time. ;)

                                                     Wine and a brownie... I'm so classy!

                                                                Graduated college!

                                                           Watched my sister turn 21!

                                                  Watched my best friend graduate college!

                                      Hung out with my best friend before she moved to SF!

                                                                     Visited her in SF!

    Added to my tattoo collection for a wonderful person who died way too young. Love you Kyle!

         Love when my friends have babies... Yes I am the aunt that her shirt is talking about. :)

                               Family reunion! (Only got bangs once... pics are out of order)

     Want to be like my happy grandparents when I finally find the one. 57 years of wedded bliss!

                          Car decorated by 2 of my most amazing friends... brought me to tears!

                                                                    GRADUATION!

Obsessed with an app on my phone that lets me make collages and lovin my new roommate! :)

A Visit

My mom visited this weekend after not seeing her for a while and although I was nervous at first it ended up being a successful fun weekend. We haven't exactly been on good terms lately because she is a recovering alcoholic but she seems to be trying everyday so I knew I should see her and truth be told I wanted to. Even after all she's put me through she was still my best friend and she's still my mother and I miss her, I miss who she was when we talked everyday. I just miss her. I know she loves my brother and I but why can't she just get it together already? She's a mother, when you have kids you don't matter anymore, the kids do, you do everything for them. Also why does it have to hurt so bad still? I'm 23 years old and she hasn't been around for about 6 years or longer and I still can't seem to forget about her and just accept that maybe she won't get better. I still have a glimmer of hope that I probably shouldn't have but I do, maybe it's because of how close we were, maybe it's because she's my mom but I just want her back. I like to believe that she's changing and working towards becoming a better person, the mother she was when I was a child but if I let myself believe that then I'm scared that I'd just get hurt again. How many times can I let myself go through that again after all these years? She used to be the person I'd go to for everything and now I hardly talk to her every couple of weeks. I have to learn to let go and let her be in charge of her own life, she's 51 years old and she's the parent so I need to let her do this and focus on myself. I can't let her life take over my own life anymore, I have to focus on me. I just wonder if it'll ever be the same.

People

Sometimes the human race baffles me. If there are two things I can't stand it's flakes and liars, I think there is a difference between tiny white lies and full blown elaborate ones but all in all honesty is always the way to go. Especially when the lie is about something so minute that it would've been way better to just tell the truth in the first place. Its even worse when the lie gets out and someone gets pissed or worse, hurt. I can't control what other people say or do, and sometimes I just have to back off and realize that some people aren't worth fighting for anyway. Sometimes its best to just let go then to get so angry and fight so hard for something that isn't even there.

I'm BAAAAACK

Yes it's true, I am back to blogging! I was gone for a loooooong time but that's because of a few silly reasons; I forgot how to log in to my blog, I've been extremely busy, and well I'm kinda lazy. Hopefully now that I've learned how to re open my blog I will be writing more often.

A few exciting things are happening, I am moving in with my boyfriend of 19 months on July 1st, I've never lived with a boy before, eek! I can't wait though, I know it'll take a lot of readjusting but I'm also extremely excited to see how our relationship grows. My current roommate is moving to San Francisco, and while I will miss her dearly, I am so so so so very excited for her and to see where this takes her in life. She is one of the most independent strong people I know and I am so blessed to have her as a best friend. Plus now I have somewhere to stay when I go to that kickass city. :)

I also start my last semester of undergrad in December and will graduate around December 17th, I can't believe college is ending! What do I do when I don't go to school anymore?! Find a REAL job? No way! I am torn with emotions because I am excited and scared all at the same time. I will have to go through the credential program so I won't completely be done but pretty damn close. I can't imagine having my own class to teach and to be mine! I am extremely thrilled to finally being closer to my dream but also petrified of failing. Luckily I come from a family of teachers who can help me with my questions and starting a classroom.

My brother who works with me as a host is now moving up to server which is pretty neat, he's been there for about a year 9 months so this is definitely due. I get to train him which is pretty exciting for me, I am glad he can move up and show them his skills as a server because he did so well as a host. It's weird to watch your younger sibling grow up, he's going to be 20 in August and I can't see him as anything other than a shy thumb sucking 4 year old.

I think that is all my exciting news for now, I have 50 things to do today and haven't even brushed my teeth yet, yikes! Have a great day!

Random facts about me

I stole this from my friend Courtney on facebook, well technically she tagged me in it so I am supposed to do it and after Rose suggested it would be an awesome blog I thought to myself you know what? It totally would so here it is:

1. I could literally eat sushi everyday of my life and be satisfied.
2. My family is the most important thing in the world to me, mess with them and I hurt you.
3. I've wanted to be a teacher since I was 7 years old.
4. I've also wanted to be a wife and mother longer than I can remember.
5. I want to travel the world after I get married and before I have babies.
6. I am obsessed with babies, ask anyone close to me. I'm pretty sure my uterus glows when I see one. Ha.
7. Its taken me a long time to be this happy and I am truly blessed to have the boyfriend I do.
8. I love visiting my parents and siblings at home but I also love living on my own, its exhilarating and makes me feel like a real adult.
9. My cousins, brother and I are not only family but best friends! We are Fagu Quad. :)
10. I go on dates with my brother, he's one of my closest friends.
11. I steal the blankets when I sleep, I always end up wrapped up in them in the corner of my bed and when I'm sleeping alone I sprawl out on my bed, my cousin and I used to kick each other when we slept at my Grandma's.
12. I like driving. I LOVE my car.
13. No matter how tired, drunk, sick I am, I ALWAYS brush my teeth before going to bed.
14. My cat is a whore for love. Seriously.
15. I love taking pictures. Too bad I have a habit of breaking people's cameras.
16. I love piercings and tattoos.
17. My younger sister taught me how to do a poof and did my make for a good year before I did. She's talented. :)
18. I love doing laundry.
19. I HATE doing the dishes.
20. I could watch Friends seasons over and over and over.
21. My Dad is one of my heroes.
22. I love living in California but I think living on the East coast for a year would be fun.
23. I miss my Mom and wish she would get it together.
24. I talk to my Grandma about once a week via phone calls or texts.
25. I have a lot of friends but only a couple best friends.
26. I'm such a night owl.
27. I hate mornings but I've gotten better, probably due to a 7:30 am math class.
28. I hate walking and driving in the rain, I wish it would only rain when I'm inside sleeping or can cuddle and watch a movie.
29. I despise tomatoes, french toast, brownies underneath ice cream, powdered sugar, syrup. Yes I said despise, I literally can not stand the sight of them.
30. I love romantic comedies more than any other genre. I'm an incredibly romantic person.
31. I love the beach and tanning, my cousin and I used to tan everyday two summers ago, we are obsessed.
32. I've never snowboarded or skied, I am going to try this winter though and am stoked!
33. I have a love/hate relationship with the restaurant business, although this job is my favorite one thus far.
34. I'm addicted to my text messaging, ipod games, and facebook.
35. I love sunflowers, stars, and sea horses.
36. I have a heterosexual lifemate who is pretty much my other relationship which my boyfriend knows and has come to terms with. Haha. We are pretty much the same person. Think alike, talk alike, even dress alike. I love my boo!
37. I hate.. I repeat HATE commercials.. of any kind. Tv, radio, anything, I will pause the tv at my parents house so I can fast forward through commercials and when they come on the radio I switch the station.
38. My biggest pet peeve is people who can't spell simple words. Are and our are different folks.
39. My dream guy is my boyfriend... awww. ;)
40. I have lost someone very close to me and I wouldn't wish it upon anyone, its one of the deepest most intense pains I've ever felt and I miss him ever day. Cherish and appreciate those you have and love because you never know when they will be taken away.


Hope you enjoyed reading these and do some of your own!

Inspire

Recently I went shopping with my roomie and while at Ross we saw some adorable journals and fell in love with them instantly. She just got back from Ireland and has a wonderful scrapbook/journal with all kinds of neat things stapled in it. Thus I was inspired to buy a journal and put cool things in it, I am not going out of the country however but still wanted something that I could write my thoughts in and also because it says inspire on the front decided that I wanted to put quotes in it as well. Today as I sit in riverfront at school I am starting to think about all the things that inspire me and I realize there are many: quotes, songs, people, even scenery. I like to sit in the corner of this room and listen to music while watching all the students around me study, chat, and eat lunch, because I can't hear them I like to imagine what they're saying and even who they are. Some studying which unfortunately reminds me of upcoming assignments I have, some playing with their phones, some just sitting quietly as I am. I wonder what things inspire these people and what they are doing with their lives. I can't imagine living in a world where nothing inspires, pleases, excites you. I always try and take the time to appreciate the things around me and to write down things that make me happy, sad, scared, or surprised. Anything that makes you feel anything should definitely be documented.

So I ask, what inspires you?

Slippers, Coffee, and Roommate love.

I got back from class today and realized as I was about to arrive home mind you, that I had forgotten to buy my Mother a birthday card so instead of parking at my residence made my way to Target and browsed a little instead of heading straight to the card section. I remembered last year that I had bought these delightfully cozy slippers for 12 bucks and LOVED them so I headed in the shoe direction and found that they had them again! I was jazzed. I searched the sizes because sometimes it's hard to find mine.. I'm a 9.5/10, big foot I know. I found a pair and also purchased a pair for my roomie because I knew she'd love them as well, (we always love the same things, we are essentially the same person). She was still in class when I got home so I tossed them on her bed and when she came home she adored them just the way I wanted her to! As I made my way downstairs after taking my nap I put my slippers on and brought my homework with and brewed a pot of coffee and sat watching the Giants game, then my roomie came down slippers on, homework in hand just like me and had some coffee too, (I brewed it for her cause I'm such a motherly person :)) and we sat together chatting, facebooking, watching the game, and doing the occasional homework. It's time like these I love the winter weather. :)